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When a Woman You Love Has Breast Cancer


I had several of these cards. They lived on our fridge, lined my pockets, were bookmarks in my books and journal.

Back from our run, Luke noticed that with his lilac-colored chew toy in his mouth, Angus and I matched. It’s important to choose one’s running attire to match your dog and his chew toy!

This piece has been a while in the making. I take a deep breath and offer these thoughts, as during my own journey with breast cancer I came to realize how very many lives breast cancer touches, whether it’s you or a woman you love, mother, sister, friend, cousin, and on and on. If a woman you love has breast cancer, I hope this piece might provide insight and ideas.

If you are the woman with breast cancer and this reflects your experience, but you may not have the words or energy to express, you can text or email this piece—”This is how I feel,” or “This is how I felt”—so people will know how to support you, without you needing to tell them.

I offer this reflection on my own experience, as I realized that when the words “breast cancer” enter a conversation, often people don’t know what to say. I can only speak from my own experience and what my mom and other dear friends have shared with me about their breast cancer journeys.

While this piece cannot encompass the infinite experiences of all women, I hope it might include common threads and make the ground firmer under your feet.

Some possible language and things to think about when a woman you love has breast cancer:

“I’m so sorry you’re going through this.” When in doubt, go with this. That was really all I needed or wanted to hear. An acknowledgement of the journey, no explaining, no joking, no trying to make me feel better, just an acknowledgment. I knew I could take the rest from there.

Listen. When this journey begins, you are bombarded with different procedures, tests, and possible treatments. Some are optional, others not so much. I learned that the decisions made are intensely personal for each woman. Listen to her and support her in her decisions. I know that I made decisions that those who love me did not initially agree with. It meant the world to me that they listened, supported me, and did not try to change my mind, even though I knew how they truly felt. It’s her body, her decisions. Listen, trust that she knows what’s best for her, and support.

Follow her lead. For some women, this is an external journey and others an internal one. Some women seek comfort outwardly, and others turn deep within. “It seems like the women I know with breast cancer go either all one way or the other,” a dear friend said to me. “Either it’s intensely public or intensely private, not too much in-between.” Whatever her natural inclination, follow that. Some women find great comfort and strength in sharing with their friend and family communities via email, social media, talking about it, sharing the journey. Whatever path the woman you love walks, follow her. It is such an internal and intuitive urge, it’s really not even a choice.

For me, the journey was extraordinarily private. It’s always been like this for me. When I go through tough times, I put my head down, go deep within to get through it, and emerge into the world after. Another reason I kept this journey private is that I did not want to see that look in peoples’ eyes. That look of sympathy. I wanted to feel and be as strong as possible.

If she is someone that goes within, often those who love her feel helpless at not being able to help or feel left out, not included. This is not personal. For that woman who needs to go within, providing her with both presence and space is an enormous support. She feels your love and presence. It’s just taking every ounce of her energy to get through this right now and when she emerges on the other side, she will connect. There are many reasons why the woman you love may go deep within for this journey. Presence and space.

Until she jokes about it, it’s too soon. I believe this comes from the very human response to make someone you love feel better through levity and humor and with the best of intentions. Until she jokes about it, it’s too soon. And, if you want to make her feel better and initially joke too soon, she understands where that comes from and the love it expresses. When my mom was going through chemo, we finally laughed when she described putting on her make-up foundation the day after shaving her head, “I went to put on my make-up today and where do you stop?” she said as she moved her hand up her forward and just kept going up and over her bare head. “Your neckline in the back?”

Grief and mourning. Her grief and mourning are real and deep. I learned later that after visiting dear friends during the depths of this journey, after I left the husband said, “That wasn’t Dawn. She just seems so sad.” I was so very, very sad. Doing my best to cover for that, but clearly there were cracks. Grief for my body. Grief about the journey. Just soul-deep grief, and I couldn’t figure out how to come out of it. I did my best to put a smile on, so as not to spread that grief. I read something Brad Pitt said about going through tough times that resonated with me, “I clean up okay on the outside, but it’s still pretty rough underneath.” That was me—with lipstick. Because my journey was private, most people did not find out until after all my surgeries, when I was on the other side of healing. Eventually, slowly and on it’s own time, the light began to shine in my soul again.

Pink. Not all women with breast cancer embrace the color pink immediately. Remember my own near Great Pink Balloon Rampage? It would be an understatement to say that I immediately embraced pink. I remember Mom expressing this, as well. Philosophically, I whole-heartedly embrace pink and the research and at last naming and holding space for a woman’s cancer marginalized in the medical community until recently that it represents. I just didn’t want to wear or see it during the most intense times. I embrace it now. It has taken quite a bit of time and I’m out of the deep throes of the journey. Other women find tremendous comfort, community, and support with pink. Whatever she feels, it is deep, visceral. Go with it.

Don’t even try to explain her experience to her. Please, please, please do not explain how she’s feeling or what she’s going through to her. That’s a great way to get throat-punched.

Just do it. If you want to provide support or show love, just do it. Do not say, “Let me know if you need anything.” That sentence hands another responsibility to the woman you love who is already doing all she can to keep one nostril barely above the water. Just send flowers or a card. Just send luxurious face creams or have take-out delivered. Put together a care package with an impossibly soft blanket that she’ll curl up under and feel your love. Send tea and candles. Bake homemade bread and send. Whatever feels right. Just do it.

If you’re the woman going through this. I’ve been on the other side of this for a few months now, some things that I would say to myself or any woman going through this. Be gentle with yourself, you’re doing the very best you can. Trust yourself and your intuition. Sleep when you can. Create a soft nest with an impossibly soft blanket, candles, tea, flowers, meds. Stay there as much as possible. Your body will be different, not worse. Embrace the stories of your scars. This one will may take a lot of time. I’m just starting to maybe get there. There’s no right or wrong way to do this. Trust what feels right for you.

While these ideas cannot encompass the infinite ways that a woman experiences breast cancer, I hope they might provide light in what can feel an opaque and unfamiliar landscape.

Follow her lead.

Trust that she knows the right decisions for her.

Presence and space.



Author: Dawn Wink

Dawn Wink is a writer and educator whose work explores language, landscape, wildness, beauty, and imagination.

38 thoughts on “When a Woman You Love Has Breast Cancer

  1. Beautiful words about a horrible time. The soft blanket means so much more to me than any words. Currently wading through chemo and treading water while the waves crash over me. Take care xxx

    • Uniboobi, oh, this means so very much to me. Isn’t that so true about the soft blanket meaning so much more than any words? Just wrapping oneself in love. I still wrap in mine every evening.

      Surrounding you with healing thoughts and energy during this time of chemo, treading water, and waves. Thanks ever so much for letting me know.

      Love and hugs to you,

  2. Thank you for this. I think about you from time to time (I used to be your student at SFCC), and how much I learn from you.

    • Jennifer, how lovely to hear from you! Thanks ever so much for taking the time to connect. I am grateful to know that our time together was well-shared!
      Take good care,

  3. Great piece. The part about both presence and space is exactly where I want to be held.

  4. Thank you for sharing. Your words reminded me I’m not alone in this journey and that there is no wrong way to be.

  5. Everything in this post resinates with me as I am journeying through breast cancer. Can I share this post with my support group? I lost my mom to breast cancer 10 years ago and loved pink, until it was myself fighting. At the moment I can’t stand it. You’ve put into words what I have thought this entire time.

    • Dear Moneik Quilts,

      I wanted to make sure and connect in-person to all you share here. Yes, yes, of course you may share with your support group. I wrote and sent out into the world in the hopes that this piece might resonate with others who share our journey. Please share with any you feel this may resonate with and let them know they are not alone.

      Oh, that whole pink thing… I had no idea, before I went through it! When my mom was going through breast cancer, I loved pin, as well. Not when I went through it, though! I’ve had so other breast cancer survivors who have told me the same thing, but they didn’t want to admit it. We are not alone in this.

      Yes, yes, please do share. I am very grateful to connect with you.

      Warmest wishes,
      Dawn Wink

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  7. Such beauty, grace and wisdom in your words, my friend. Love you.

  8. Dawn, Thank you so much for putting your thoughts into words we can understand and carry with us. I so appreciate all you do to help each of us expand our thinking and understanding. Hugs to you as you progress in your journey of life. Miss seeing you!!

    • Dear Charlotte, oh, does this mean so very much to me all that you write here. Thank you, thank you, and thank you for taking the time to connect. I miss you, too!
      Much love,

  9. Hi Dawn,

    Thank you for this inspiring piece. Your words are so powerful. Your words are intensely expressive and held a particular value for me as I read every sentence. My sister-in-law is a breast cancer survivor for over a decade now. Your words gave me pause to think about her needs. Thank you for your personal insight.

    Best to you always,

    Tara Voit

    • Dear Tara,

      Thanks ever so much for taking the time to connect, especially resonant with your sister-in-la as a breast cancer survivor. So very grateful to know this may provide some insight. Thank you!

      With much gratitude,

  10. Thank you Dawn! This information should be available to all who love anyone. You are beautiful and your words are

    incredibly beautiful! XX OO Total healing and lots of love!

  11. Hi Dawn!  This is beautiful!  And, if you recall, I can really identify with it.  Your words are what every woman needs to read and hear.  Thank you!  I hope your mom is continuing to do so well.  I love seeing her photos and know that she and I were on this intense journey at the same time some 15 years ago.  Where has the time gone!!  I have thought a lot about your mom after learning about your breast cancer diagnosis.  It is one thing to go through it yourself, but it must be a whole other BAM to the soul to watch your daughter go through it.  It is one of the anxieties that I live with regarding our daughters.  Thank you for all your “Dewdrops”.  I feel a wonderful connection with you and  New Mexico when I read them.  Please tell Noe and your beautiful young adult children hello.  The children probably do not remember me, but I remember them well from teaching them Sunday School class on a blanket in Rosario Cemetery!  Ah…those were the days!  Blessings to you, dear Dawn!:Love, Shirlee

    • Hi, Shirley—
      Oh, I was so thinking of you, as well, as I wrote this. Thanks ever so much for taking the time to reach out and connect. Mom is doing just great. Thank you! Yes, I agree on the added layer of watching your daughter go through. I am so very grateful you feel this reflects the experience and may provide some light.
      Oh, teaching Sunday School on a blanket in the Rosario Cemetery! A flood of memories just came back. Thank you, thank you.
      Much love,

  12. Dear Dawn,
    Thanks for this lovely post. As a person who has so far been spared from cancer, I appreciate your kind advice. And I think most of what you say applies not only to all kindsof cancer, but to conversations with anyone living with a dreadful diagnosis.

    • Dear Anne,
      Thanks so very much for taking the time to reach out and connect on the common threads that run through this and other dreadful diagnoses. Your thoughts really made me muse on this and I agree. I’ll learn from this. Thank you for this gift.
      Much love,

  13. Thank you so much for sharing❤️I am grateful and honored to read your story.

  14. What an inspiration you are Dawn. You exude strength, beauty, wisdom, and so much grace. I love your courage and thank you for sharing your story. You are a Wise Woman Warrior. Love you!

    • Dear Sharon, thank you, thank you for connecting! Means so very, very much to me. Here’s love and hugs through the years from one Wise Woman Warrior to another! Love you!!

  15. Wonderful advice, only wish I could have read it before my beautiful little sister Dawn Andersen passed away. Thank you for the wonderful words of wisdom.

    • Dear Dennis, thank you ever so much for connecting and sharing your own story of your little sister, Dawn. It is an honor for me to know this and share our journeys on this particular path.
      With deepest gratitude,

  16. Beautifully written!

  17. Beautifully written, Dawn. I wish we lived closer so I could hug you. Know you are in my thoughts and prayers every day. Love you, forever.

    Sent from my iPad


  18. You, beautiful Woman, continue to Amaze me!! With the depth of your strengths, your inner courage, and your uncanny ability to Express so much you feel, from your innermost Spirit & heart…in Words…So Well💜 Thank you, from my heart, for Sharing❤ May you continue to be Blessed with Sunshine moments, Joy, Love & Good Health💖🙏 And…❤

  19. Anne, thanks ever so much for connecting. So very good to hear from you, you beautiful woman. Hugs and love across the miles.

  20. Wise words from a wise woman of experience. Everyone is on her/his own path and it is important to honor that. That’s the lesson I learned from my darling Vince as he walked his path with cancer. Statistics are one thing; humans are another. Thank you, as always, for your graciousness in sharing your path.

    • Dear Liz, oh, the incredible Vince! Did he ever walk his path with courage, honor, and humanity. Such an honor to share with you both. Thank you ever so much for your heart reaching out to mine. XO

  21. Dawn, you beautiful woman, sharing your experience with grace and love and just the right words. Thank you.

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